L’esprit d’escalier:

You hurt me today
my love
You took my body
my soul
my heart
and left them
on the ground
in a bloody pulp 

I should have
wept at your feet
begging for mercy
I should have said
“Hell No”
“You ain’t goin’ nowhere
with nobody” 

instead
being the insensitive male
I showed nothing
and only said
OK 

You wanted me to be
sensitive
so I trusted you
and opened my heart
then you made it bleed 

All I wanted
was your
love
devotion
body
soul
mind
and respect 

I was offering
to you my
love
devotion
body
soul
mind
and respect
in return 

instead
you gave me your
minor excuses
for being selfish
and I offered
nothing
but only
OK 

You said
you wanted memories
now
I am one 

Where do I go now
What do I do
I fell in love
for the first time
with you
because
you were all
I wanted 

now it is wanted
in return
but to no avail 

why could I not
say these things
to you
now I only say them
aloud
only to
myself